Heaven? Is significant? Greeting to all my friends and Gift of Faith be with you.
In this part of the testimony, I would like to share my innermost thought which I did not pen down in my earlier testimony. I can’t remember when I backslide. I married my Non-Christian wife on 8th May 1986, so it must be early 1985. We had courtship for about a year plus, went on tour, outing, shopping and watched movies and get married. It doesn’t matter when the date is I backslide anyway. Why I waited until now to write this article? Well, I have to confess that it is because I wasn’t very sure of how to testify for Our Lord Jesus. After having read about the different between Spirit and Soul, the inspiration somehow kick starts me to write today. In those day when I was backslide, I told myself that there is nothing much about Heaven, I can’t visualize nor feel about it. I can just forgo Heaven. After all, I can live this part of my life and when the day comes for me to Rest in Peace, well, hopefully I already been successful and had provided sufficiently for my family to carry on with their life, my life would just past away; it just doesn’t bother me thereafter where my soul goes, I can never forget what my mindset at that point of time was, Heaven is insignificant to me. So, I’ll just go about my life doing what many people is still doing today, that is, living and struggling for the right to stay alive in this part of the world. It is good that I still have good conscience in me. The improved intelligent that was once conditioned by THE WISDOM, I used it for good purpose.
Many Christian friends, 5 of them (including a very good RSAF friend, who is now a Pastor in a well known Church) could not bring me back to the Kingdom of God. My path back to Kingdom of God has to be prepared by someone whom we respect and loved. The someone who has been faithful, humble and in constant fasting and prayer. She brought me to Church and I was rebuked 3 times by Our Lord Jesus. He had proven far beyond my human intelligent that he is my BEST businessman and the Only Solution to ALL PROBLEMS faced by mankind.
To be honest, after being reborn on 2nd December 2007. I still don’t really grasp the Heaven’s reality, can’t Visualize nor feel it. But my good friend had come back to me, The Gift of Wisdom by our Helper, the Holy Spirit. Yes, the Intelligent is getting nourished and reconditioned again to help me see the light of God, our Lord Jesus. And the words I spoke and wrote is thus seasoned by the Salt again, gaining favors. I wanted to tell people about this promotion to higher Spiritual Level as compared to more than 20 years back but somehow I decided to hold back because of concern that people may not take it positively. Then, on 19th April 2008, our Church had a service by invited speaker, Rev Dr Kim SungHae, she said earnestly that WISDOM helped her to be a Professional Shopper. This spur me to boldly declare the Spiritual Gifts that my Partner, our Holy Spirit had brought into me, giving glory to our Lord Jesus Christ. I did this on 24th May 2008 at the first chapter of 9 Gifts Of The Holy Spirit by Rev. Richard Roberts 2 Apr 2006 Of course when I did this by telling some Christian about it, they had these unhealthy worldly thinking that I am trying to show off or that I think too highly of myself. In fact, I had someone who told me off that I think too highly of myself. Well, should I be angry with the person or feel sad about it? Why bother? I am doing God’s Will, I rejoiced every moment doing God’s will, why care about those down to earth human thought? During one of the Church service in the Month of May 2008, Rev Dr Kong Hee said “Just like you’re celebrating your friends’ birthday, your friend appreciates your gift. In the same way our Father in Heaven will give us Spiritual Gift by manifestation of Holy Spirit, we should also boldly declare and gives thanks to our Heavenly Father too.” Hallelujah! That message really comes as a Gift of Faith for me, because the message gives me the assurance that I am doing the right thing by boldly declared the Spiritual Gifts that my Partner, Our Holy Spirit had brought into me.
It is this intimacy of closer walk with our Lord Jesus with the help of Holy Spirit that I started to feel the important of Heaven, though I can’t feel nor visualize it yet. Slightly more than 20 years back, I was a strong Christian. Back then, I was only able to interpret Biblical symbols and wrote some poems. Today, I am able to write parables, create web site, breaking and tweaking php codes, know how to run the web hosting business and receive Vision and write more articles. Please read the rest of the articles; there are testimony of how my prayers were answered and a few occasions, even though I did not pray for certain thing to happen our Lord Jesus knows my heart well; he had overwhelmingly satisfied my desire without me asking for it in prayer; two blessed happenings. I did not write in any article as yet. One Friday morning, I was reading the Book of Leviticus 10:9, I wanted to know the meaning of Tabernacle but somehow I forgot to check on the Dictionary. The same night, CG meeting us had a lesson on the Tabernacle. When I am hungry for knowledge, our Lord Jesus just arranged it for me. Same for any brother and sister, if you are hungry for knowledge and spiritual growth, Our Lord Jesus will provide for you. The other happened on one Sunday morning service; a brother bought me a book titled “Undercover”. I wanted so much to know how to reveal messages to certain senior and yet not to let them feel as though I am going against THE AUTHORITY. This book that was supernaturally bought by one of my brother thus taught and showed me how to do it. That is, reveal whatever I see and hear to senior in the same way a prophet was telling the King about certain warning and prophecy with respect. Well, my work has been completed at this ground and by the grace of Our Lord Jesus; I was brought to another new ground now.
So, it is these closers walk with our Lord Jesus with the help of Holy Spirit, that my life becomes more complete and meaningful. I can never be alone anymore, because, my partner, Our Holy Spirit is always with me. What he excite or tell me to do, I cannot refuse. It is this intimacy with God, Our Lord Jesus that I feel, joyful, secure, work wiser and has the capacity to do more things. Provisions after provisions of my needs without fail. Finally, a breakthrough, my Sister Laura wrote a Review on “Heaven is So Real.” and she lend me the book. After reading this book, I can Visualize and feel that Heaven is Real! Hallelujah. You can see my review by clicking this link Title Personal review of Choo Thomas’s book “Heaven is so real” Perhaps, that is the reason why our Lord Jesus had to use Sister Choo Thomas to write this book, as there are many Christian like myself, can’t feel nor visualize Heaven. I strongly encourage all backslided Christian to come back to our Lord Jesus, maybe you are in the same shoe as me, you felt the same way as me “Heaven is insignificant, I’ll just live this part of my life.” Give yourself a chance to have closer walk with the Holy Spirit and not only that you will feel as being loved as the Son of Heavenly Father but also you are able to visualized and feel that Heaven is Real. Non-believer too, if our natural father can do good things for us. Our Heavenly father can do even much greater things for you!