Heaven, is it significant?

Heaven? Is significant? Greeting to all my friends and Gift of Faith be with you.

In this part of the testimony, I would like to share my innermost thought which I did not pen down in my earlier testimony. I can’t remember when I backslide. I married my Non-Christian wife on 8th May 1986, so it must be early 1985. We had courtship for about a year plus, went on tour, outing, shopping and watched movies and get married. It doesn’t matter when the date is I backslide anyway. Why I waited until now to write this article? Well, I have to confess that it is because I wasn’t very sure of how to testify for Our Lord Jesus. After having read about the different between Spirit and Soul, the inspiration somehow kick starts me to write today. In those day when I was backslide, I told myself that there is nothing much about Heaven, I can’t visualize nor feel about it. I can just forgo Heaven. After all, I can live this part of my life and when the day comes for me to Rest in Peace, well, hopefully I already been successful and had provided sufficiently for my family to carry on with their life, my life would just past away; it just doesn’t bother me thereafter where my soul goes, I can never forget what my mindset at that point of time was, Heaven is insignificant to me. So, I’ll just go about my life doing what many people is still doing today, that is, living and struggling for the right to stay alive in this part of the world. It is good that I still have good conscience in me. The improved intelligent that was once conditioned by THE WISDOM, I used it for good purpose.

Many Christian friends, 5 of them (including a very good RSAF friend, who is now a Pastor in a well known Church) could not bring me back to the Kingdom of God. My path back to Kingdom of God has to be prepared by someone whom we respect and loved. The someone who has been faithful, humble and in constant fasting and prayer. She brought me to Church and I was rebuked 3 times by Our Lord Jesus. He had proven far beyond my human intelligent that he is my BEST businessman and the Only Solution to ALL PROBLEMS faced by mankind.

To be honest, after being reborn on 2nd December 2007. I still don’t really grasp the Heaven’s reality, can’t Visualize nor feel it. But my good friend had come back to me, The Gift of Wisdom by our Helper, the Holy Spirit. Yes, the Intelligent is getting nourished and reconditioned again to help me see the light of God, our Lord Jesus. And the words I spoke and wrote is thus seasoned by the Salt again, gaining favors. I wanted to tell people about this promotion to higher Spiritual Level as compared to more than 20 years back but somehow I decided to hold back because of concern that people may not take it positively. Then, on 19th April 2008, our Church had a service by invited speaker, Rev Dr Kim SungHae, she said earnestly that WISDOM helped her to be a Professional Shopper. This spur me to boldly declare the Spiritual Gifts that my Partner, our Holy Spirit had brought into me, giving glory to our Lord Jesus Christ. I did this on 24th May 2008 at the first chapter of 9 Gifts Of The Holy Spirit by Rev. Richard Roberts 2 Apr 2006 Of course when I did this by telling some Christian about it, they had these unhealthy worldly thinking that I am trying to show off or that I think too highly of myself. In fact, I had someone who told me off that I think too highly of myself. Well, should I be angry with the person or feel sad about it? Why bother? I am doing God’s Will, I rejoiced every moment doing God’s will, why care about those down to earth human thought? During one of the Church service in the Month of May 2008, Rev Dr Kong Hee said “Just like you’re celebrating your friends’ birthday, your friend appreciates your gift. In the same way our Father in Heaven will give us Spiritual Gift by manifestation of Holy Spirit, we should also boldly declare and gives thanks to our Heavenly Father too.” Hallelujah! That message really comes as a Gift of Faith for me, because the message gives me the assurance that I am doing the right thing by boldly declared the Spiritual Gifts that my Partner, Our Holy Spirit had brought into me.

It is this intimacy of closer walk with our Lord Jesus with the help of Holy Spirit that I started to feel the important of Heaven, though I can’t feel nor visualize it yet. Slightly more than 20 years back, I was a strong Christian. Back then, I was only able to interpret Biblical symbols and wrote some poems. Today, I am able to write parables, create web site, breaking and tweaking php codes, know how to run the web hosting business and receive Vision and write more articles. Please read the rest of the articles; there are testimony of how my prayers were answered and a few occasions, even though I did not pray for certain thing to happen our Lord Jesus knows my heart well; he had overwhelmingly satisfied my desire without me asking for it in prayer; two blessed happenings. I did not write in any article as yet. One Friday morning, I was reading the Book of Leviticus 10:9, I wanted to know the meaning of Tabernacle but somehow I forgot to check on the Dictionary. The same night, CG meeting us had a lesson on the Tabernacle. When I am hungry for knowledge, our Lord Jesus just arranged it for me. Same for any brother and sister, if you are hungry for knowledge and spiritual growth, Our Lord Jesus will provide for you. The other happened on one Sunday morning service; a brother bought me a book titled “Undercover”. I wanted so much to know how to reveal messages to certain senior and yet not to let them feel as though I am going against THE AUTHORITY. This book that was supernaturally bought by one of my brother thus taught and showed me how to do it. That is, reveal whatever I see and hear to senior in the same way a prophet was telling the King about certain warning and prophecy with respect. Well, my work has been completed at this ground and by the grace of Our Lord Jesus; I was brought to another new ground now.

So, it is these closers walk with our Lord Jesus with the help of Holy Spirit, that my life becomes more complete and meaningful. I can never be alone anymore, because, my partner, Our Holy Spirit is always with me. What he excite or tell me to do, I cannot refuse. It is this intimacy with God, Our Lord Jesus that I feel, joyful, secure, work wiser and has the capacity to do more things. Provisions after provisions of my needs without fail. Finally, a breakthrough, my Sister Laura wrote a Review on “Heaven is So Real.” and she lend me the book. After reading this book, I can Visualize and feel that Heaven is Real! Hallelujah. You can see my review by clicking this link Title Personal review of Choo Thomas’s book “Heaven is so real” Perhaps, that is the reason why our Lord Jesus had to use Sister Choo Thomas to write this book, as there are many Christian like myself, can’t feel nor visualize Heaven. I strongly encourage all backslided Christian to come back to our Lord Jesus, maybe you are in the same shoe as me, you felt the same way as me “Heaven is insignificant, I’ll just live this part of my life.” Give yourself a chance to have closer walk with the Holy Spirit and not only that you will feel as being loved as the Son of Heavenly Father but also you are able to visualized and feel that Heaven is Real. Non-believer too, if our natural father can do good things for us. Our Heavenly father can do even much greater things for you!

TESTIMONY BY STANLEY TAN REBORN CHRISTIAN ON 2ND DEC 2007

A) Deciding to join Church Service

I once passed by City Harvest Church at Jurong St.92, I was very impressed by sight of seeing coaches after coaches of Church goers. I set myself to think whether if these people are going there really to attend Church Service or just wanting to join the well known Church to enjoy the Stardom there? So I said to myself, “Wish I could there one day.”

Vivi Lim invited me to attend her church service at EXPO on 25th Nov 2007 saying there is a painting program. But I decided not to go because I thought that I should not go to a Church Service just because there is some special activity there but rather I would go there just for the sake of going to church. So I only planned to go to Church Service at EXPO, the following week.

On 30/11/07, I asked Vivi Lim about the timing for church service on Sunday. She told me that it is 9.30am. Okay, so I had decided to go to the The EXPO on 2nd Dec 2007. It doesn’t matter which church it is, so I thought. Vivi Lim had advised me to go there with an open heart. My mindset had already been fixed to think that City Harvest Church that I once wished to go in was only at Jurong West St 92, so this one which I am going must be another Church at Far away location, The EXPO.

B) Our Lord preparing me by clearing doubts and questions

As I was driving along AYE, I started asking myself questions. Why I backslide? Backslides? What is that? I don’t really comprehend the full meaning of it. History comes back to my mind one by one. Oh yes, what had I done to my very worn-out Bible? I threw it away and along with it my many pages of hand-written interpretation of Symbolic meanings. Yes, at that point of time, I remembered that I strongly believed in the passage Mattew 7:7 “Ask and It will be given, seek and you’ll found” Certain thing that I wanted in Prayer wasn’t answered, i.e. not given.
Driving passed Marine Parade on ECP
Deep inside my mind, these questions somehow started to find its own answers deep within my sub-conscious mind. Somehow I realized how self-centered I was, I wrote articles and poems to vent my frustration and also insist my Church Sister (Prinsep Street Presbyterian Church) in charge of Newsletter print out my article for my selfish purpose. I started to feel very sorry to have forced my way to have my article published. I was making my own decision to try to make things happened but it never did. So our Lord Jesus Christ had somehow make arrangement for me to be married to someone else. And at this point, I realized that I have a mission. I arrived at The Expo, 9.25am.

C) My wish Granted

It is amazing, I wasn’t expecting my wish to be granted so sudden and so unexpectedly. I am attending City Harvest Church Service! It is so funny, having been told many times by Vivi Lim and S.K. Lee that they are attending City Harvest Church service and yet I was so ignorant and silly because my mindset had fixed City Harvest Church at Jurong West St 92. Yes, now I recall, that is the place where I was once stopped by the Security/User to let pedestrian cross the road at Jurong West. Our Lord Jesus Christ really has his miraculous way of granting my wish.
Ken brought me in to the Church. Once I entered the EXPO arena. I hear loud music. What is this Music? So loud and sounds like rock music. Is it the music suitable for church service? I find it noisy. Why so many of them jumping like rabbits? Our Lord Jesus Christ somehow had spoken through messages. Ah yes, the answered is being revealed. Our lord is the Past, Present and the End. Somehow I began to understand how he is able use the modern music to attract youngster to come to Church service. Amen, how many souls had been saved from harm’s way through this musical? I begin to like the contemporary music and songs. Isn’t this proved that God our lord is ever living God who can move with time? It is really amazing how God had used our Sisters and brothers to use modern music to lure youngster away from trouble, as stated in the Bible.
Rev 21:13 “I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the End, the First and the last” What about the present? Oh yes, we brothers and sisters are the present, “The living Testimony of Lord Jesus Christ.”

D) Preparing me to go to the Altar

The message about Adam and Eve, eating the forbidden fruit, both finding shame of being naked, fear and have no faith in God. Somehow these start to break me down. I started to realized numerous times I had misused knowledge given to me, thereby hurting and making people angry. Then Rev Kong Hee mentioned about why human being had so much fear in failure, which is because God was not put front to steer the business. At this movement, tears started to flood my eyes; I had to remove my glasses couple of times to wipe away my tears. How silly I was, no wonder there was so much misunderstanding and doubts, although it was my Good intention to give other people opportunity make money. They have doubts suspicions in my proposal. My clouded mind begins to clear out; it is only with God’s help, which is full of Love, Grace, and faith that we can safely put our business without blame from people.
Next message was, businessman can be very successful in their business, but their business is limited. With God’s help and control, it is bounder less, and business can grow and grow without limit due to Global connections. We have a touching sharing by MACY Pte Ltd on how it becomes successful after putting the business into God’s hand. With God blessing the business, there is no suspicion, no fear of failure. This time I am silently crying, I think I have inner joy now. I am released from bondage to my OLD Self.
Praise the Lord for being so patient with me. For the past 20 years or so, I had not been attending church, nor pray to Lord Jesus Christ, yet is he so willing to forgive me. Rev 3:20 “Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and dine with him and him with me.”
For all these 20 years or so, I do not have a humble soul, there is so much complains in my mind; trouble, doubts, jealousy, anger, vengeance and all the worldly knowledge that makes me unhappy. I have no space for our Lord Jesus Christ, Holy Spirit, God. How would I able to hear when my door was knocked? I am so noisy within me. Our Lord Jesus Christ has been knocking doors of everyone around the world. It is such a shame that I didn’t hear his knock and open my door for him. I had to be rebuked 3 times by our Lord Jesus Christ through the spoken message by Rev Kong Hee. (Please note that I do not know how I quantified 3 times, I will be writing a book on 1-2-3, I strongly feel that this is our Lord calling for me to write. The 1-2-3 has very significant meaning in our daily life). Before coming to church, I planned to say 3 things to Vivi Lim. First thing “(apology, I have to keep this one silent)”, Second thing “I will accept Lord Jesus Christ only next week. Third thing “Since I already been Baptized in Prinsep Street Presbyterian Church, I will serve in my first Church.”
How wrong was I. The lord has spoken to me “I am the best businessman of world, of the universe. No one can negotiate with me with his own terms and conditions”
John 21:6 “Cast the net on the right side of the boat and you will find some.”
So they cast, and now they were not able to draw it in because of the multitude of fish. This time Rev Kong Hee asked all to close their eyes so that for those who want to accept Jesus Christ can put up their hands. I put up my both hands real high up in the air. This time, my crying of joy really is very audible. I am crying like a baby. Rev Kong Hee asked all who had put up their hand to go the front stage “The Altar” to accept Jesus Christ.

E) Surrendering myself in front of the Altar

Without hesitation, I moved forward very quickly to The Altar, with Sister Vivi Lim and Brother Ken guiding me. (Added note: Actually, the Holy Spirit hurried me to the get the best location, both of them had hard time catching me up. Been at center of stage, I have opportunity to be welcome by Pastor Kong Hee and Rick) I said to Lord Jesus “You are the best Businessman; I completely surrender myself unto you. Oh Lord Jesus, I need your Guidance. I need you to steer my business. I pledge all my business into your hand, Oh lord. I want to be Naked again just like the beginning, Adam and Eve with no knowledge of this World. Take away everything worldly from me. Oh Lord. Make me blind again, so that I can’t see worldly possession because I believed in you and you can make see again in the light of righteousness. Make me crippled; so that I shall not walk sideway nor on the wrong path again, because I believe Lord Jesus Christ can c; so that I can walk the straight path of righteousness. Prune away every part of my body that is bad, so that I can grow new branches and bear fruits, Oh lord.”
John 15:2 “Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He takes away; and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit.”

F) Hallelujah, I am reborn again

Together with Vivi Lim, Kenneth and myself. We prayed. I prayed for Lord Jesus to forgive all my sins. Heard Vivi Lim’s Speak-in- tongue, immediately I felt very close and warm. This same Gift from God when Holy Spirit descended onto everyone here, I already had. I began to enjoy the Music even more. Yes, my path has been laid and I know Lord Jesus Christ had a mission in plan for me in this City Harvest Church, Hallelujah Amen.

Brothers and Sister, thank you for reading my testimony. Many miracles had happened before my eyes after being reborn. Be steadfast, have good faith in God, our Lord Jesus Christ. Because whenever our Lord Jesus is performing miracles, the evil one is always there to tempt you away from God.

Addon Notes:

Miracle on 14th Dec 2007 How our Lord Jesus had answered my Player of Uncertainty for my Trip to Surabaya in less than an hour. Fellowshipping with brothers and sisters kept me out of trouble We are having BBQ, and then I had an urgent phone call. My developer insists I go down to Holland Road. But I never did, because I know the important of Fellowshipping. It is amazing that how this decision had saved me from Potential damaging trouble.